and the angels descended and sang out loudly the hallelujah chorus

i know all of the experts say "back to sleep". well, once a baby can turn over on their own i guess you really can't control that. you know i have had a time getting little gray to stay asleep at night....well, last night i rocked him the regular 10ish minutes or so and then he started rubbing his eyes and having long blinks.  i laid him down and off to sleep he went. he had been asleep for about 2 hours and i went in and turned him over onto his tummy. off to bed i go. i woke up around 1:30, not sure if it was b/c of habit since that is around the time he has been waking up and needing the paci put back in or if he was really making any sounds. i got up to ck on him and he was sleeping. i went ahead and put the paci in and he took it. then my alarm clock woke me up at 5:30. it was either the alarm clock or the angels screaming out that beloved hallelujah chorus! i THINK we may have figured out a way for gray to sleep so that he doesn't wake himself up by slinging his arms and legs. on his tummy he can't really flail. oh, how i hope tonight goes the same way. i hope last night was not a fluke. please, please, please.

my heart is heavy

i am tired.

my mind is unorganized.

i am behind in most things now-a-days.

i wonder sometimes what it feels like to be well-rested.

i have friends going through some big things.

i don't know most of ed's students. and that totally opposite of how it used to be. students used to come over to our house a good bit and some even would spend the night just for funsies.  i kinda miss that.

i have put myself in the center of this post, however, this is my site. i guess i can do that.

i need a vacation...and i may would even let ed come with me.

that's it for now.

i have a confession...

i kinda like facebook way better than xanga.